Tommys Thoughts

For 37 years, I can’t remember my Grandma ever being sick. I’m sure she has been, but I have never heard it. She always seems well when I see her and at 82 she still lives at the cottage and drives herself wherever she needs to go. On Mothers day she called my mom to give her a guilt trip about not going up to see her (5 hours away), but later called back and said she was sorry and that she was going over her girlfriends house. Monday evening we got a call that she had had a stroke and loss the use of her left arm and some of her left leg. She had many tests done this week and they have said that with therapy she should regain the use of both her arm and leg. The saw no permanent damage, but she is not acting like that. My mother moved her into ICU last night because her blood pressure has been all over the place and she won’t stop throwing up when they give her medicine. I almost seems like my Grandma is putting herself in the grave. She is having anxiety attacks and we have found out that she has been having them since she moved back into the cottage after the long winter. When my mom went up there earlier this week, all the curtains had been pulled closed and the house was a little dirtier then it normally is. Its never like that. The house looks out over the lake and the curtains are always open. I’m really worried about her and Sandy and I have talked about going up there to help my mother out, but I can’t sit in the car to drive my hour to work so I don’t know how I will get the 4 hours to the cottage from our house. I guess I will have to lay down. I just don’t know how to deal with this. she has always been so strong to me. She and Garrett have their birthdays on the same day. She will be 83 and he will be 8 in July.